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HOW TO STYLE AN EASTER TABLE: PERFECT PASTELS

Hey Everyone,

This post is for anyone tempted to indulge in a bit of Easter excitement on a slightly more sophisticated level, perhaps for a small group of adult friends or family! Pastels are everywhere at the moment and I used this as a theme to create a more mature and     chilled-out vibe. I raided my Mum’s Easter decorations and I also managed to find some fab bits in supermarkets and homeware shops too!

I HAVE ALSO WRITTEN A POST FOR CHILDREN-FOCUSED FUN TOO, SO CHECK THAT OUT HERE!


C5C3F743-312D-406A-9944-EA33F6BB6A0E.JPGI bought this gorgeous pastel and gold egg tree from Homesense. I’d had my eye on it for ages and I managed to find it reduced! I sat it on top of a wreath my Mum bought years ago, however things like this are available everywhere at the moment.


C6CB306A-2712-4688-9FE0-47CE3EF6AB56.JPGI found this gorgeous faux floral “Hop” decoration in Sainsbury’s. It’s definitely something that will stand the test of time and I’m sure I will be using it year after year, so I can justify paying a bit more!


22F0106F-7074-4135-B669-96353960094E.JPGI was given this heart-shaped ceramic bowl for Christmas and it was perfect to use for this Easter display! I filled it with shredded tissue and glittery mini eggs which I found in craft shops (The Works etc.) and then I added some truffles that I bought from TK Maxx!


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Processed with VSCO with hb2 presetI also picked these candles up in Homesense. I often buy DW Home candles and they’ve just released a pastels range – perfect! These add such a nice touch to a tea party and they also make the room smell fab!

IF YOU’RE ALSO A CANDLE LOVER, CHECK OUT MY FAVOURITE SPRING CANDLES POST!


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Processed with VSCO with hb2 presetThese polka dot plates are something my Mum bought years ago, there’s loads of things like this around, I also used plastic plates too which are easy to find in your local pound shops etc. The faux white roses are from Dunelm and are probably the most realistic ones I’ve seen! I’ll probably use these in lots of my posts so if you’re a blogger, I strongly recommend grabbing some!


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I hope you enjoyed this post and that it helps some of you out if you’re wanting to host a little shindig! If you have any tips or tricks, let me know in the comments as I’m always looking for new things to create and do when it comes to hosting and decorating!

N xxxx

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HOW TO STYLE AN EASTER TABLE: EGGSTATIC ENTERTAINMENT

Hey Everyone,

I’m always looking for an excuse to host something and occasionally I’m lucky enough to do so. I reckon I can throw some tips into this blog post as well as where to get everything you’ll need! I’m a decoration hoarder and I definitely take after my mum with that. When we were little, mum used to decorate the whole house with all kinds of goodies and she would throw little themed tea parties. We would come home from school to find a table in the hallway with the best seasonal display you ever did see. For Easter, the house would be full of pastel eggs, bunting, chocolates and tiny chicks (obviously not real thank god). I absolutely cannot wait to do the same thing for my kids when I’m older and I’ve already started collecting some little bits and pieces (call me keen I don’t care it’s in my genes). I’ve been thinking of the best tips, advice and decorations that I can recommend if you want to throw a little event yourself!


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I raided some of my Mum’s old Easter decorations (I’ll show close ups) as well as buying some of my own. All of the snacks are from local supermarkets and pound shops – as you might expect! Most of these bits and pieces cost no more than a couple of pounds each so it’s super easy and fun to find! Everywhere has different bits and pieces on offer so make sure you shop around and scan every shelf!


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This tree was found years ago by my mum in a party shop and it came complete with tiny decorations (carrots, eggs and bunnies). The great thing about these is when you’ve got little ones to entertain, you can all hang them on the tree together. One thing my mum used to do was pop the decorations inside hollow plastic eggs for my brother and I to find as part of an easter hunt. We would then be involved in decorating the tree with each little goodie that we found! It’s such a simple activity but I remember being extremely entertained! Even now, at 20, I love to see this stuff!


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I bought lots of bags of Easter themed sweeties (I recommend going to poundshops for these as there’s so much available). These are perfect for adults and kids alike!


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This wreath is another one of Mum’s, it was bought many years ago. This year I filled it with polystyrene eggs, bought from Home Bargains and pound shops. I decorated them by pushing a cocktail stick through each egg. Then I filled a small bowl  with water and dropped blobs of old nail varnish onto the surface. I dragged the varnish around with a cocktail stick to make a pretty pattern. Then I dipped each egg into the water, making sure they were completely covered in the varnish. If you don’t want to use nail varnish, you can also use acrylic paints. It’s super easy and quick to do and the results are fab! I will keep hold of these to use each year.


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These cornflake bites are from Asda, just stick on a few mini eggs with some icing and you’re set! I never got round to sticking them on, but you can see what it would look like!


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This gorgeous cake was kindly sent to me by the team over at bakerdays! They offer stunning personalised cakes of all different sizes for every occasion! I really recommend checking out their beautiful website and if you need a cake for a special day or a special person, you can get 15% off with my code NINALOUISELAW15.

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I chose to place my mini eggs in some Asda Easter nests. Little characters made the perfect props to add a playful touch. These can be found in most supermarkets and pound shops. It’s hard to avoid them at this time of year, they’re everywhere! However, have a good browse, as a whole farmyard is out there for the finding!


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You can see from the photos, I’ve assembled my own take on an edible Easter wreath by layering different goodies! Again, propping characters up against them added a bit of fun to the table!


I hope you enjoyed this post and that it gave you some fun ideas for Easter entertainment! I would love to hear any of your tips and tricks in the comments as you can probably tell, Easter is my thing!

N xxxx

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AN IMPORTANT MESSAGE

BLOGMAS DAY 24

So, we have reached the end of my first ever Blogmas! I’m so so so glad that I took part as it’s taught me so much about the world of blogging but also about myself. I’ve learned that I actually have a lot more confidence than I thought I had.

I started this blog in September and I didn’t share it with anyone at first – the thought terrified me. I was scared I would be judged or laughed. Writing the post about my brother (it’s here if you want to give it a read) taught meย  to be true to myself and not to be afraid of being judged by other people. The support that I received in response was so overwhelming. In my first ever blog post, I talked about how blogs and youtube channels have helped me in dark and difficult times in my life and that I was hoping to achieve something similar in my own writing, soย I was incredibly moved by how many people said that it had helped them.

This little world that I have created also helps me too. I’ve always loved writing and expressing my opinion and being able to do this whenever I want to, about whatever I choose makes me super happy. I’m so glad so many of you have enjoyed my posts and that it continues to help and entertain all you lovely people out there! Your support honestly means the world to me.

To my girl tribe back at uni, thank you all so much for being avid readers and for even sharing them with your friends and family! Benjamin, you absolute star – thank you so much for putting up with my blogging breakdowns and typing tantrums and for helping me plan my posts and for being so supportive with everything that I do!

I hope that you all have a wonderful Christmas a very happy New Year and that you get to spend lots of time with people that you love. Speaking of which I can sense a growing panic in the kitchen as dinner is nearly ready, so I should probably go and assist my parents!

Lots and lots of love N xxxx

 

 

 

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THE CHRISTMAS TAG

BLOGMAS DAY 22

I’ve always loved reading people’s tag posts because I think they tell you a lot about a person and they’re always fun to read. I thought I would take part as I’ve never done one before so here you are, enjoy!


1. What is your favourite Christmas Movie/s?

I hate to be extremely predictable, but it’s got to be Love, Actually. I bloody love this film, it hits all the emotions and it’s such a feel good film. I don’t feel like it’s Christmas without watching it. Gotta love a bit of Colin Firth, Hugh Grant and Emma Thompson – not to mention Alan Rickman too.

2.ย Do you open your presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?

We like to save the excitement for Christmas Day! I don’t think I’ve ever opened a present on Christmas Eve, it felt like there was a rule that shouldn’t be broken. I can remember being little and waking up in the middle of the night to find my stocking at the end of my bed, the temptation was unbearable. I remember poking my presents,ย trying to figure out what they were.

3. Do you have a favourite Christmas memory?

I remember sleeping in my brother’s room in a sleeping bag on his bedroom floor (our first sleepover) and in the morning we were opening our stockings and I got some little desks and lockers for my Barbie dolls. I’d wanted to play ‘schools’ with my dolls and now I could! – It’s the small things for 6 year old Nina haha!

4. Favourite festive food?

I’m aware these are around all year however there’s nothing like scoffing a box of Lindt chocolate truffles on Christmas Day – alone (no sharing whatsoever thank you). I’ve always loved pigs in blankets though, my mouth is watering just thinking about them. Recently I’ve also started enjoying festive inspired crisps. If you’re wondering what I’m on about, check out M&S for some very interesting combinations.

5. Favourite Christmas gift?

I have a few. First I have to say my Playmobil Hospital. I picked this with my parents and they hid it upstairs and I remember sitting in front of it every night and staring at it – I was so unbelievably excited. Another doll-related gift, I received a boy Bratz doll and I was over the moon. It was so difficult finding boy dolls anywhere so this was a groundbreaking moment for Nina’s doll collection.ย  Another fond memory I have, I must’ve been pretty young, I was given a ‘Grease’ (as in the musical) handbag which I took everywhere with me as I was obsessed with the film. OBSESSED. I used to watch it every morning and pause it before school only to come back home and continue watching it from that point. My poor family probably didn’t fancy listening to ‘Summer Nights’ that frequently. Soz guys x

6. Favourite Christmas scent?

It’s got to be peppermint. I know it’s not particularly traditional but I’m loving it at the moment, it reminds me of candy canes! I find the traditional Christmas spice scent quite overpowering so I don’t tend to buy anything that smells of it. I have a couple of posts where I talk about my favourite festive candles so check them out here and here if you’re interested!

7. Do you have any Christmas Eve traditions?

We usually have something yummy to eat and we watch whatever festive shows that the BBC has to offer or we tune into a Christmas classic. At some point we usually watch something animated (Dreamworks or Pixar). Shrek the Halls is one of my favourites actually.

8. What tops your tree?

My brother made a little purple angel made from paper with a photo of his face on it when he was at school so it’s usually that. We have two trees and the other one doesn’t do a great job of supporting a star so I try and distract with lots of decorations instead.

9. As a kid what was the one (crazy, wild,ย extravagant) gift you always asked for but never received?

I don’t really remember asking for anything too nuts but I’m sure when I was really little and I thought anything was possible – I probably asked for all sorts.

10. What’s the best part about Christmas for you?

Cringey I know, but I’ve always loved giving people presents. My mum always gave me lots of little bits to open on birthdays and for Christmas as opposed to one or two big things. I always thought this was better and more exciting, I still do. So I enjoy all of the shopping and buying presents for friends and family. I feel like that little kid from the John Lewis advert haha! Another fab part of Christmas is of course, the huge sales. NEW CLOTHES AND MAKEUP YAY!


Feel free to answer these questions yourselves as I would love to hear about your Christmas traditions and favourites!

 

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WHAT UNIVERSITY HAS TAUGHT ME SO FAR

BLOGMAS DAY 10

It’s that time of year again where lots of students are beginning to consider whether they may want to go on and study at a university or take up an apprenticeship or even go on a gap year so I thought this post could help some of the undecided out there or help answer some of those random questions you have about life at university.ย University is one of those things that I wish I had known more about – from a students perspective before I suddenly just seemed to arrive. The lengthy processes of UCAS, personal statement writing and looking at entrance requirements is helpful, but it doesn’t give you a proper insight into university life.


BEING AWAY FROM HOME

I personally, couldn’tย wait to get away and experience something new (no offence mum and dad), however, some people can’t imagine anything worse than being away from their family or the comfort of their own home. Saying goodbye was hard but I was excited to meet my flatmates and move in properly so I was pretty distracted.ย The first few days felt so strange, I was suddenly with five other people in a flat all day every day and it was Freshers week so we were mostly going to different clubs every night, it kind of felt like a holiday! After a week of drinking way too much and consuming chicken nuggets at ungodly hours of the morning, it suddenly hit me that I was on my own. I didn’t have my dad knocking on my door in the morning to offer me a cup of tea and I didn’t have my mum to go to when something went wrong. It was terrifying.

Once the regular routine of uni kicked in I became used to it and by that point, I was much closer to everyone that I lived with so I was coming home to familiar and friendly faces every day. I definitely realised how much I appreciate all that my parents do for me as it’s very clear what life is like when they aren’t around as much (chaos). I found calling my parents when I was walking somewhere on my own or in the evenings when I was free was really comforting and it was nice to hear what they had been up to. I chose to go home once during the first term, for a weekend, which was easily arranged via trains. I also stuck photos of my parents and friends on one of my bedroom walls which wereย also nice on the more difficult days.

If you think you might struggle with homesickness, finding a source of comfort in advance will help just so that you are prepared. For example, look up how to travel from university to home (and back again) beforehand so that it’s easy for you to organise once you’re there. Try and find some nice photos of you and your friends or family that you could take with you to stick on your wall, in some photo frames or even in a scrapbook. Lots of people are in the same boat so don’t worry, missing home is totally normal.


FRIENDS

Keep your options open. This is where I think I’ve learned the most since starting university. I tend to put all my eggs in one basket and this is definitely one of my flaws. I rely too much on routine and not enough on spontaneity and this means that I shut myself away. I would definitely recommend trying to meet as many new people as possible in the first year as a couple of months into the first term, you’re likely to be choosing who you want to live with in the second year.

I would recommend joining societies, getting to know people on your course or even people that also live in your accommodation. You’d be surprised how many opportunities this opens up! You never know if the friend of a friend that you bump into in a lecture could be your best pal next year. My best friends at uni (yes girls, this is your moment if you’re reading) were my flatmate’s coursemate’s, flatmates, which goes to show that putting yourself out there and meeting new people can have its benefits, even if it is a little intimidating at first.

 


MAKING LIVING ARRANGEMENTS

This is where I would have told myself to be super careful as you think you know some people but the truth is it’s only been a few months. Don’t rush yourself, take your time to meet different people and get to know them. Don’t feel pressured into saying yes despite how early everyone may want to get it sorted. Don’t feel like you have to carry on living with everyone that you’re in a flat with in the first year, you got put here randomly and now you have a choice! Even if your decision might cause some problem to begin with, by the time you’ve actually moved in it will seem much more insignificant and you’ll barely even think about it. This is where my point about getting to know different people comes in handy.ย Realistically you have to think, “do I want to share a house with these people all day every day for another few years?” if you’re hesitant, then you probably shouldn’t rush this decision.

I chose to live with my boyfriend in second year, which was a huge step for me but I knew it would be the right one. He’s very calm and patient to be around and I get very anxious and stressed out easily, so he acts as a calming influence around our flat. I also quite like him anyway (funnily enough). We were originally going to share a flat with 12 people, which although tempting in terms of having a good laugh and there being lots of people around, it was too difficult to organise between us all and we didn’t know all of the people involved that well (if at all). Looking back on this, if it had gone ahead, it would have been pretty difficult to manage and certainly wouldn’t have been as peaceful as living together, just us two.

One night we were trying to find more options and I just ended up saying ย “the only two people that definitely know what they’re doing are me and you so why don’t we look at a place for just us two”. We went and viewed some properties and decided that was what we wanted to do! Just because I chose to live with one person doesn’t mean I’m left out or lonely, I make sure that I spend lots of time with my coursemates and my friends so that I’m busy and I don’t isolate myself.


INDEPENDENCE

Gone are the sheltered days of the classrooms and playgrounds.ย No matter how many talks I listened to at school, where they warned us about this that and the other, I was not prepared for the level of independence that came with first year. I arrived knowing how to (just about) cook the basics, work a washing machine, make my bed and iron clothes. I thought “oh I’ll be fine” NOPE. Apparently, the concept of regular food shops, budgeting, getting myself up and about in time for lectures, chasing myself for my own work in time for deadlines, had not properly registered in my brain. It was a real shock when the food my parents had bought me had ran out. I had to face the supermarket alone, and figure out all my meals in advance (like a normal grown-up person). There was no more mum telling me to “eat something!” or shouting from downstairs “I’m putting on a colours wash now!”, there was no “How much of that essay have you done for Friday” from my teachers. It was all down to me. I may seem like I’m stating the obvious, but when these little reminders and important people that had been guiding me my whole life were suddenly gone, I had to figure out where to go next.


FOOD

It’s easy to get caught up in all the excitement and buy yourself pringles for weeks on end but it will definitely creep up on you when you’re trying to fight the cold that everyone in your flat has a few weeks later. I put on weight last year and somehow I was confused as to how this had happened. Perhaps pasta, pizza and chicken nuggets are not the ideal diet for a student…

When I started having proper meals at normal times, I noticed SUCH difference in terms of my energy and how productive I would be in a day. It’s definitely something you have to learn yourself, as I will admit, the constant 2 for 1 student offer on Dominos pizza here in the UK had me thinking a greasy margarita would be a sufficient meal in a day. Every week. Every month. WRONG!

I would recommend taking a cookbook to uni with some easy recipes to follow to allow for some variety in your cooking. There’s also an app called Tasty, that I reviewed in my last post which has some quick and easy recipes to follow (in video format). I found shopping in Aldi last year was the best way to save money and still have really good food in the fridge. The savings are unbelievable when you compare to other leading supermarkets. You don’t have to buy everything here, but perhaps for the more regular bits and pieces, like milk, cheese, pasta etc, this is the place to be!


MONEY

This is perhaps the most discussed topic of uni students: “I’m broke”, “I just don’t know where all my money has gone” “I’m in my overdraft”. How do these numpties manage this, you may ask? It’s easier said than done.

Students are constantly being lured in with student discounts left, right and centre. You think you’re saving money but actually, you’re spending more than you would’ve done in the first place. There’s also so much going on, that you might feel you have to take part in everything so maybe treat yourself once or twice a week so that you don’t go overboard.

Keep an eye on your weekly spendings. Do a weekly food shop and add up how much you’ve spent. Make this your budget and try and stick to it for the rest of the year. Some weeks will be different to others if there’s a birthday night out, if you’re going out for dinner instead or if you don’t need as much one week, but try not to let it change drastically.

Keep on top of how much you spend on clothes and makeup or toiletries. There will be lots of discounts available – there’s even a student lock-in night in Nottingham (dangerous for any bank account let alone when a shopaholic such as myself is let loose) so either set aside some money for these bits every week/month or only grab some bits every now and again, do whatever suits you.

Try to limit how much money you take on nights out. This is often where lots of people mess up as they take their card, meaning they can spend as much money as they want. Only having cash on you, means you can only spend a certain amount and then you’re all out.

Do not, I repeat DO NOT get an overdraft if you cannot pay it back.ย A lot of people see it as free money, which it’s not, you still have to pay every last penny back. Just because it’s there doesn’t mean you have to use it.


STUDYING

I was not expecting the leap from A levels to first year to be as huge as it was. All of a sudden there was so much extra reading to do, SO MUCH MORE content (heaps and heaps) and lots of modules to juggle.

Keep on top of your studies. Something I’ve found that really helps you get organised is every day when you come home from uni, write revision cards based on everything you’ve learned that day. This helps you learn it from the beginning but also means you don’t have to waste time at the end of the year writing them all out when exams are fast approaching.

I would also suggest starting your work as early as possible as all kinds of things pop up and conveniently seem to be the same week as a deadline. Don’t let yourself leave it until the last minute as then you have to turn down opportunities because you’re cramming all night, try and get it finished a week before.

In terms of making your work better and more intelligently put together, follow any mark schemes provided by the university but also do all of the extra reading. This will help you to add extra academic sources to your essays/reports and this will make you stand out. It also is great practice for when you have to write a dissertation etc. later on.


HAVE FUN

It might seem scary but enjoy it! University is such a unique and amazing experience. There is a lot to be taken from it, I’ve certainly learned a lot over the past year and a half and I’m sure I will be saying the same thing in my third year. You’re unlikely to be in another environment where so many different people and opportunities surround you again, make the most of it! You don’t have to follow the crowd if you don’t want to, there’s something for everyone and you can do you, whenever and wherever you want!

Find your tribe. Find a great group of people that make you happy and that you can relax and be yourself around. Having friends at university can make such a difference to your experience so the one thing I suggest above all else is to try and put yourself out there and meet people. Push yourself and try new things and if it’s not for you, try something new the next day! The possibilities are endless.


I hope this post gave some of you an insight into what to expect at university. There are endless topics to cover, however, these are the mostย important, in my opinion, as I wish someone had discussed these things with me before I started.

 

N xxxx

 

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WHY DECEMBER IS DIFFICULT FOR ME

BLOGMAS DAY 6

Despite the imminence of festivity, December can be the toughest month of the year for some people – it’s not always mince pies and mistletoe. Today, is why I sometimes dread Christmas coming around.

Before I begin, I want to warn you that this is about grief and loss.


My brother Ben was the happiest and most positive person I’ve ever had the pleasure of spending time with. We had lots of happy happy times together, we were inseparable. He was so cheeky and special, life was left pretty boring without him. If you imagine yourself watching the colourful world go by, and all of a sudden a black and white film is cast over everything. That’s the only way I can describe how it felt to lose him. Trying to describe him is too difficult as there aren’t enough words in the world to do it, nor would any be good enough. Unfortunately, Ben died in December which sometimes makes the month quite a difficult time for me. It seemed strange to go through today and post about something trivial when this is such a big part of my life so I hope you don’t mind me telling you about it.

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Ben had two disabilities, an unusual combination of Cerebral Palsy and Crohn’s Disease. Two awful disabilities that both had a huge impact on his life. He had good and bad years and during some of the worst, he would be in hospital for long periods of time. 2009 just happened to be one of those bad years. I remember going to bed one night feeling like something wasn’t right and I couldn’t sleep because I was thinking too much. I heard Ben start crying, which was normal to some extent. I went into his room and tried to comfort him and talk to him but he was really poorly. He was vomiting a lot and he kept drifting in and out of consciousness. We all knew something was different this time and I remember my mum was calling people to get advice and explain his symptoms. An ambulance came and paramedics wrote down the details on their gloves. Meanwhile, I packed some things to take with me and I remember stopping to tell my dolls “Ben’s probably not going to come back but I’ll see you soon!”. I guess something had already clicked with me but I was in total denial at the time. My dad and I followed the ambulance to the hospital.

I remember noticing how pale Ben was as they wheeled him into Accident and Emergency. We sat in one of those horribly lit rooms for what felt like hours. I remember being so tired I couldn’t keep my eyes open so Dad found a spare bed for me to sleep in. I can’t remember how I got there, but the next thing I can remember is being sat on a chair by my brother in a children’s ward. He had an oxygen mask on and was surrounded by lots of very concerned looking doctors and nurses. Again, I can’t remember how I got there but I remember next being sat in a family room, playing a video game with another patient there. I remember dad coming to get me and I was then told to go and tell Ben how much I loved him. I talked to him for a while and sung him one of his favourite songs, “Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head”. My nan and grandad came to collect me and I remember they turned up with teddies in the back of the car for me to cuddle on the way home.


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When we got there I went round to play at their next-door neighbours as he was a couple of years younger with me and I often went round to see him. I remember passing his mum in the kitchen and casually saying “I don’t think he’s going to make it” and carrying on up the stairs. A little while later, the doorbell rung and my nan had come round to tell me my mum had called and that when I was ready I could go back and call her. I could tell something wasn’tย right just from looking at her face. Obviously, at the time, I had no idea that she already knew, so it must have been incredibly hard for her to act oblivious whilst I sat on her living room floor saying how excited I was for him to come home. The phone rang and my nan asked me to pick it up. I’m assuming for my own sake, my brain has stopped me being able to recall this conversation properly. All I can remember is asking mum when Ben was coming home and she had to tell me he had died a few minutes before. I can remember feeling a huge wave of shock and immense sadness. My nan came and sat me on her lap whilst she spoke to mum on the phone. I could hear my grandad burst into tears in the room next door. Ben had died in hospital and I wasn’t there. This is probably the most painful part for me as I am constantly processing the huge level of regret that I feel. I wish I’d never left him there.


Before I carry on, I need to explain a bit about a place that helped us out massively during all of this, so some background is necessary. My family and I had stayed at Helen House with Ben a few times. Helen House is a place where sick and disabled children can stay at, in order to have a break or a bit of a holiday with the facilities of a hospital, which means that you can get the medical care and one to one attention that you need, at all times. If any of you have been to a hospital, you will know that itโ€™s just not a fun place to be, you might have to wait a long time for a doctor to prescribe pain relief, or you might spend hours waiting to get someone who can help you have a bath or get out of bed and go for a walk, but at Helen House, because there is always  at least one member of staff dedicated to help each child and also to entertain any siblings, at all times, there is no waiting around and lots more fun for everyone, to help them through really difficult times. We will forever be in their debt, as no amount of money we raise will come anywhere near the real cost of what they have provided for my brother and my family. We didnโ€™t have to pay a penny, but the help was there when we needed it.

For my brother, it was really wonderful, because people really focused on making him comfortable and happy and giving him medication whenever he needed it.  I always remember how delighted he was when he went there. He spent quite a lot of time in hospital in the months before he died, but also regularly went to Helen House for special care and he was so much more smiley than in hospital. Being in Helen House made us think far less about the fact that he was dying and far more about the fact that he was really living when he was there, which encouraged us to make the most of the time we had with him. Helen house is a very kind place and the kindness goes on even after a child has died.


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A member of staff from Helen House came to the hospital to support my parents and explained that my brother could be taken to Helen House and that a flat would be made available for us all to stay in, while they helped us to make arrangements for his funeral. I was able to use a room in a private part of the house, to sit with Ben and say goodbye in my own time over the next week. This isnโ€™t something that a hospital can offer, as it was comfortable and relaxing without the constant beeping of medical equipment, which as a twelve-year-old kid, was something I really needed to help me come to terms with what had happened, I will always be grateful for this opportunity and for the support that they gave me and my family during that horrible week.

The website for Helen House can be found here.

Incredible work is done by Child Bereavement UK, an organisation, that “supports families and educates professionals when a child of any age dies or is dying, or when a child faces bereavement” and they help thousands of people every year.


I can’t really explain what it means to have lost someone that was such a huge part of my life. I can’t explain what it felt like. Grief is a very individual thing. The part I find the hardest, is telling people how long it’s been. Sometimes people think that the further away the date is, the more likely I am to be “over it” or “okay now” which I can assure you is not the case. That’s probably why I dread each year coming to a close, as it’s a painful reminder that another year has slipped away, pushing us further apart. I worry that people will underestimate how much it hurts, just because it’s been a long time. In my case, it actually hurts more now, I’m just used to living with the pain. It’s become part of who I am.  It’s more of a dull ache rather than a sharp pain and it’s not so strange to have hanging over me like it used to be. Sometimes I see it as a scar – it’s always there and I can see where it hurt, I can see the damage that it’s caused but it’s no longer bleeding.


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Understandably, on the 6th December, I used to stay at home and not go to school as I had a glimpse of the bigger picture and missing a day of school was just not important to me on a day like this. Someone I used to know once said “one day she needs to get over it” “what’s she going to do when she’s at work? She can’t just have time off all the time”. (sigh) I’m just glad that these types of people haven’t gone through such a horrible thing, to be able to know what it feels like. Over the years I’ve experienced lots of people concerning themselves over whether some of the things I would say were true, I don’t think any of them took the time to consider why I might be lying. In my case, the truth hurt too much to talk about. For years I lied when people asked if I had siblings or not because I was too embarrassed to tell people what the reality was: I was coming home to a very empty house after Ben had died and I didn’t want people to think I was lonely.  Thankfully, my brother brought lots of people into our lives that acted as family members throughout my childhood, so if we put it in those terms, I technically have a family with over two hundred loving and kind people in it!


I hope this post shows that it’s okay to be unhappy or upset, whatever day it is, no matter where you’re “supposed” to be, regardless of what other people apparently expect of you or are saying. I hope that with this post, lots of you will be reminded that Christmas can be a really tough time for some people, even if they appear to be perfectly fine on social media. Christmas doesn’t have to be “the most wonderful time of the year” for everyone. Don’t feel that you have to force yourself to smile just because everyone around you might be. It’s okay to tell people and talk about it, no matter what time it is.ย You can do what you want with your grief and those that aren’t willing to support that, aren’t worth keeping around.ย Be kind and be nice, as you never know what someone is going through behind closed doors.

Although this is a sad story, I hope some of you have learned a bit more about me, as Ben was and still is a huge part of who I am today.

N xxxx

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CHRISTMAS IN NOTTINGHAM

BLOGMAS DAY 4

I mentioned in my Halloween post that Nottingham embraces the festivities like there’s no tomorrow. There’s a Winter Wonderland Christmas market every year and I absolutely love it. The market is typically made up of lots of little wooden huts (Santa’s grotto-esque) which sell all kinds of goodies.There’s definitely something for everyone. This year it’s even bigger and better.

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So they only went and built the ‘sur-la-piste’ bar, which is basically a double-deckedย (GASP) French ski lodge, which is super cosy and lively if you fancy a drink with some friends or even just somewhere warm to run to when you become a bit too chilly. The bar plays Christmas music all day and then switches to an electric violinist on Friday and Saturday evenings! For the beer lovers amongst you, the bar is the first in Nottingham to serve unpasteurised beer (no added chemicals – pure lager) from oldest distillery in Europe!ย You can grab yourself some mulled wine and kick back and watch the world go by or embarrass everyone you know whilst dancing to an exotic cover of Sam Smith, the choice is yours!

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There are interesting foods and gifts to be found all over the place, including a tea shop this year that sells amazing flavours of, (at the risk of blowing your minds) teas – including a “Sweet Vanilla Shortbread”, “Ginger Cranberry” and “Sweet Rosehip Cinnamon”. These are all available to buy here as well. This year there are lots of traders selling award-winning Chutneys, Cheeses and Chocolates which make great stocking fillers! There are fabulous gift stalls filled with handmade jewellery and Christmas decorations and even Lego themed artwork and so much more. There’s nothing quite like giving someone you love something special and handpicked by you with them in mind, of which there is plenty to choose from! There’s also a beautiful stall selling relaxation themed products with lots of mood lights and candles (see below).

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In terms of food, there’s a lot to show you. I previously spoke about my beloved chocolate covered marshmallows and here they are once again! They have so many flavours, including Toblerone, Cappucino and Rum & Raisin! You even can grab a box of twelve for ten pounds and give them as a gift, I am obsessed with these!

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Here’s some more for those of you with a sweet tooth there’s plenty more available! The sweet stalls are probably my favourite as they’re so vibrant and colourful, it’s hard not to stop and stare to take it all in! There’s so much variety! The mini pancakes (below) were AMAZING and opting for a topping of strawberries and Nutella might have been the best choice I’ve made. I don’t think I’ve ever seen so much fudge in my life either, there areย all kinds of flavours, from Skittles to Salted Caramel. It’s worth checking out, even if it’s just for a photo of the mountains of sugary goodness! There are Crepes, Pick ‘n’ Mix, Candy Floss, Toffee Apples, Giant Chocolate Muffins…the list goes on.

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Your choices for savoury food are also endless. There are stalls selling delicious traditional British Hot Dogs, Honey Roast Ham served with juicy pineapple, Corn on the Cob, German fried potatoes, Homemade Olives, Stews…and that’s only a fraction of whats available!There are stands dedicated to covering your delicacies in all kinds of sauces, offering a wide range of toppings and side dishes. For those that have not mastered the art of walking and eating simultaneously (me), seated dining is available inside the bar area where lots more foods and drinks are served.

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For the children (or those still in touch with their inner child – me again) There are lots of stalls with fairground games where you can win yourself a giant elf or there’s the Helter Skelter that kids can zoom down whilst one of the three bars remains festive and jolly below. Possibly the most popular and certainly the biggest attraction at the market is the ice skating rink, where you can glide around a giant and beautifully lit tree to festive tunes with your friends and family. Although I’m practically like Bambi on ice, it was worth it for the amount we laughed!

The choices are endless and it’s such a special experience, the perfect way to get into the festive spirit and do some Christmas shopping! I would highly recommend checking the Nottingham Winter Wonderland out, especially for those looking for a city break before Christmas. Don’t miss out!

N xxxx

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ITALY, OH HOW I MISS YOU

During the summer, I went on holiday with my parents for the first time in YEARS.ย We went to a beautiful spa town in Italy, called Abano Terme, close to Padua. It was such a relaxing holiday and the heat wasn’tย too overwhelming for a majority of the time we stayed there, meaning we could to a bit of ‘touristing’. I thought this would be a nice way to reflect on it and have it all written down somewhere rather than relying on memories staggered around my head.

The hotel we stayed at was incredibly beautiful and although some may argue, a tad dated, I found the traditional decor so charming. The bedrooms had chandeliers and old white wooden wardrobes which I instantly fell in love with. ย There were also incredible spa facilities and a large pool area, connecting the indoors, outdoors and spa. The pools were warm! This was because they contained thermal water which was sooooo relaxing and surprisingly refreshing given the heat. I spent most of my days in the lounging area, sprawled out on a sun-bed with a book (The Girls- Emma Cline).

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One thing that this holiday influenced massively was my diet, as there was such a huge variety to eat here. We ate SO MUCH but it was all fairly healthy stuff, disguised by bright colours and decorative arrangements. The hotel provided a ‘serve yourself’ salad/starter bar which had beautifully prepared fresh vegetables and seafood every day. I had never really been a huge fan of eating cold seafood and arguably have stuck by the “fish are friends, not food” that finding Nemo taught me. However, if I catch a whiff of grilled and lightly seasoned squid, ya girl abandons all childhood Pixarย related belief systems and is ready to go IN.

Within a few days of being away, I noticed that my skin had cleared up so much and my tiny little food baby (usually a permanent attachment to my body) had disappeared entirely. I was only really eating salads and fish which meant I wasn’t even eating half as much of the carbs that I usually do back at home or university. The sunlight also usually clears my skin up to (Vitamin D is incred), so as well as feeling super relaxed I was starting to feel so much more confident in my own skin (no pun intended).

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That being said, I did spoil myself every few days with a pasta dish. I mean come on, it’s Italy, the home of pasta and pizza (90% of my usual diet). How can you turn down a tomatoey cheesy bowl of pasta?!

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Most evenings, weย walked intoย Abano Terme. It has to be said, it isn’t exactly aย nightclub or shopping hotspot however it was quirky and different from what I was used to which is what tempted me to return every night. There were a lot of statues of fountains dotted through the streets, making lovely places to stop for a coffee or watch the people go by.

Towards the end of our holiday we got the train to Venice (they were double-decker trains too- mindblown). We realised we couldn’t justify failing to go there given how close it was to our hotel. I can’t even begin to explain how beautiful Venice is so I hope my photos do it justice. I’ve not had the chance to travel much, as my parents had to care for my brother (he was severely disabled) when I was younger, so going away for long periods of time was an extremely rare treat. This completely took my breath away, I have never felt so lucky or grateful to see such a beautiful place. ย We found a small church off of one of the winding streets (far left below) inside people were lighting candles and it was extremely peaceful. The ceiling was incredibly high up and there were paintings and images of angels and religious figures carved everywhere. It truly was magnificent.

BeFunky Collage-9We spent the end of the trip inย Piazza San Marc (St Mark’s Square) (above images 2-4) which arguably, is the beating heart of Venice. Despite its vast size, there were also intimate areas where musicians played and restaurants served brightly colouredย gelato. There were so many groups of tourists taken aback by the beauty of the square and for once their flashing cameras and stop-start style of walking didn’t bother me because this place NEEDS to be seen.

We crossed lots of tiny bridges and walked along the canal through many streets with stalls and shops selling Murano glass and the normal tourist trap goods. It was amazing to think that this was an everyday scene for some the locals. (Below photos)BeFunky Collage-10.jpg

Saying goodbye to this beautifully scenic and incredibly relaxing place, was harder than I thought it would be. However, I was so grateful to have been able to go there at all and I hope to return at some point in the near future, perhaps with my boyfriend.

Let me know if any of you have visited Abano or Venice, I would love to hear about your experiences! Also given this is my first blog post, I would also appreciate any feedback that you have to offer (good or bad)

N xxxx

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